4338.209.2 | Innocence

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As the early morning rays illuminated the sky, painting it with hues of pink and gold, my feet churned through the soft Clivilian dust, propelling me faster than I ever thought possible. The urgency in my heart translated into sheer velocity, as if the very essence of my desperation lent speed to my limbs. I wasn't just running; I was fleeing from something intangible, a spectre of dread that clung to my every step.

The world around me blurred into streaks of colour, the serene beauty of the Clivilian landscape lost to my frantic pace. My breath came in ragged gasps, each one a sharp reminder of the stakes at hand. The ground beneath me felt alien, as though I was an intruder in this tranquil dawn, shattering its peace with my tumultuous presence.

Approaching the crest of the final hill, my heart thundered against my ribcage, a drumbeat of fear and anticipation. The hill loomed like a colossal sentinel, its peak offering a vantage point I needed to reach. With every ounce of strength, I pushed forward, my legs burning with the effort.

But as I crested the hill, the ground betrayed me. My foot slipped, an unfaithful ally, sending me careening down the slope. The world spun, a maelstrom of earth and sky, as I struggled to regain control. Dust and small rocks pelted my skin, each one a tiny lance of pain. For a moment, I was a mere spectator to my own descent, a puppet in the hands of gravity.

Yet, I couldn't succumb to this chaos. With a surge of willpower, I righted myself, my hands sliding against the dusty surface as I fought to stand. The descent transformed into a controlled slide, a battle against the hill's embrace. When I finally steadied, my palms were sore, my breaths were laboured, but my resolve was unbroken.

I pressed on, the camp drawing nearer with each laboured step. When I arrived, panting and coated in a film of dust, I saw Paul. He stood there, a beacon of familiarity, conversing with a stranger. This woman, with her strappy black leather top and metallic waist, seemed like a figure conjured from a different realm. Her skin-tight pants and the quiver of arrows over her shoulder painted her as a warrior, an enigma.

Her presence was a puzzle, her attire a stark contrast to the soft, natural palette of the Clivilian dawn. Yet there was no time to ponder this anomaly. The emptiness of the camp, save for these two figures, gnawed at my insides, stirring a whirlpool of questions and fears.

"Who the fuck are you?" The words tumbled out of my mouth more as a gasp than a question, echoing the pounding turmoil inside me. I stepped closer to Paul, seeking some semblance of stability by bracing myself on his shoulder while my lungs fought for air.

"Luke!" Paul's voice carried a mix of shock and a stern warning, his eyes flickering with a disapproval I knew all too well. But in that moment, his scolding was just a distant murmur against the storm of my racing thoughts.

"I'm Charity," the woman replied, her voice steady, almost soothing in its clarity. She didn't flinch at my harshness, her calm demeanour forming a stark contrast to the chaos churning inside me.

"What... where did...?" My words broke off, stammering, as I struggled to piece together a coherent question. Her presence, her confidence, it all seemed out of place in the rugged wilderness of Clivilius.

"I'm a Chewbathian hunter," Charity declared, her tone imbued with a hint of pride. The term 'Chewbathian' churned through my mind, foreign and mysterious, sparking more questions than answers.

My eyes must have betrayed my confusion, glossing over as I tried to grasp the significance of her words.

The woman continued, grounding her mysterious identity with a connection to the land, "I was born here, in Clivilius." Her words aimed to bridge the chasm of unknowns, offering a sliver of understanding amidst the bewildering encounter.

"That explains the warrior princess outfit then," I managed to quip, a weak attempt to mask my unease with humour. Her attire, though striking, now made a semblance of sense, a visual testament to her claimed heritage and role.

But my mind was far from satisfied, swirling with a torrent of inquiries that couldn't find their way into words. "But... how...?" I faltered again, my voice trailing off. The questions jostled for precedence in my mind, each clamouring to be heard, yet all merging into a muddled cacophony of confusion.

"I've been tracking the pack of shadow panthers for a few days now. They're experts at finding new settlements." Charity's voice held a note of solemnity, her eyes reflecting a depth of knowledge and experience that both intimidated and captivated me.

"So, they really were here last night, then?" The words stumbled out of me, my mind grappling with the reality of the danger that had lurked so close.

"Yes," she replied, her affirmation sinking into my chest like a stone in a still pond, sending ripples of dread through my veins.

"Charity killed one of them," Paul interjected, his tone a mixture of admiration and sombreness as he gestured toward a dark form beside the smouldering remains of our campfire.

With each step I took towards the fallen creature, a mixture of curiosity and trepidation pulsed through me. Paul and Charity's gazes followed me, heavy with a silent understanding of the scene before us. The shadow panther's sleek black fur absorbed the sunlight, a sobering contrast to the vibrant Clivilian morning. It lay there, a powerful beast reduced to stillness, its lifeblood having painted the earth in a grim tableau.

The blood, now dried, had seeped into the dust, creating a dark halo around the creature. It was a haunting reminder of the night's unseen terrors, of the thin line between life and death in the worlds of both Clivilius and Earth.

I crouched beside it, observing the lethal grace of its form, even in death. The slice across its belly, clean and precise, spoke of Charity's skill and the brutal necessities of survival here. Its long, thick tongue lolled from its mouth, resting between an array of razor-sharp canines, a frozen snarl that whispered of the predator it had been.

"It looks different during the day," I murmured, my voice barely above a whisper, as I nudged its stiff head with the toe of my shoe. The creature, now just a carcass, seemed almost benign under the harsh light of the sun, stripped of the menacing aura it exuded in the shadows.

"You've seen one?" Paul's voice cut through my introspection, tinged with a mix of surprise and concern.

"Yeah," I replied, the word heavy in my mouth. A lump formed in my throat as the image of Beatrix, with her determined eyes and the stark, chilling sight of blood running down her arm, invaded my thoughts. The memory was vivid, almost palpable, as if I could reach out and find myself back in that terrifying moment. And yet, the urgency to return to her, to amend my departure, strangely didn't seize me as it should have. The guilt was there, gnawing at my insides, but it was as if the shock had numbed my senses, leaving me adrift in a sea of conflicting emotions.

"What happened?" Charity's inquiry snapped me back to the present, her eyes probing, seeking to understand the depth of the ordeal we had endured.

"I think it followed Beatrix back through the Portal last night," I answered, my voice steadying despite the turmoil within. The words felt surreal, as if I was recounting a scene from someone else's life, not my own.

"Shit," Paul exhaled, the word hanging in the air, heavy with implications.

"Fuck!" Charity's expletive sliced through the tension, her reaction raw and unguarded. She began to pace, each step a visible manifestation of her anxiety. Her movements were restless, a physical echo of the unease that the mention of the Portal and its unforeseen consequences had stirred in all of us.

I watched her, recognising the same whirlwind of fear and uncertainty that was raging inside me. The shadow panther, the Portal, Beatrix's bloodied figure—they all spun together in a dizzying dance of cause and effect, leaving me teetering on the brink of an unknown abyss.

"So, that was Beatrix that screamed last night?" Paul's voice broke through my tumultuous thoughts. I sensed his underlying concern, veiled beneath the guise of curiosity, but the weight of the night's events pressed down on me, making each word feel like a stone in my mouth.

"Yeah," I replied, the simplicity of the word belying the complexity of the emotions it carried. "Beatrix is a Guardian now.”

"Like you... and Cody?" There was a hint of awe in Paul's voice, a recognition of the duty of what being a Guardian entailed.

"Yes." My affirmation was a whisper.

Charity's pacing ceased, her gaze locking onto me with an intensity that felt almost tangible. Her stillness contrasted sharply with the turmoil churning within me, her eyes seeking answers in mine that I was not sure I had.

But it wasn't enough to halt Paul's barrage of questions. "How?" he pressed, his curiosity unyielding.

"I'm not completely sure how she became a Guardian. She's still in shock." The words tumbled out, each one laden with worry for Beatrix, her image seared into my mind.

"Shock?" Paul echoed, his repetition punctuated with a note of dawning comprehension.

My frustration surged, a rising tide that I could no longer contain. My foot lashed out at the dead creature, an unwitting recipient of my pent-up anger. "Because the bloody beast fucking attacked her, that's why."

"Back on Earth?" Charity's voice cut through the tension, her question probing at the thin veil between our worlds, now punctured by the intrusion of this alien predator.

"Yes!" The exclamation burst from me, a vehement confirmation that transcended the boundaries of Clivilius and Earth, of our reality and the unimaginable horrors that had breached it.

"Are you certain it was a shadow panther that attacked her?" Charity's inquiry sliced through the thickening tension, her voice steady yet imbued with an undercurrent of urgency.

"Yes. I'm certain," I replied, the conviction in my voice a conflicting with the turmoil roiling within me. As I spoke, I noticed Paul's demeanour change. His face, usually a mask of resilience, drooped, his usual steadfastness crumbling before my eyes. It was as if my confirmation had unlocked a gate, allowing a flood of unspoken fears to pour through.

"What have you not told me yet?" The question emerged from my lips, tinged with a vulnerability I seldom allowed myself to show. The fear that had propelled me through the Clivilian landscape, fear for our safety, our survival, now morphed into something more personal, more acute.

Paul's response was a visible struggle, his lower lip caught between his teeth, quivering as he fought to contain the emotions brimming within him. Watching him, a man typically composed and unflappable, succumb to such visible distress sent a chill down my spine.

I could see the pain etched in his eyes, a mirror to the turmoil inside him. It was a look I had seen before, in moments of loss and despair, and it reignited a familiar pang of dread in the pit of my stomach. Within seconds, my own eyes began to sting, a physical manifestation of the empathy and anxiety coursing through me. Adrenaline surged, a primal response to anticipated danger, heightening my senses, preparing me for a blow I knew was coming yet felt powerless to evade.

It can't be good news, I thought, a realisation as chilling as it was clear. Paul would have spoken up sooner, would have been his usual forthright self, if there wasn't something dire he hesitated to disclose. My mind raced, darting between the faces of those I cared about, those who were unaccounted for. Is it Joel? Jamie? The names echoed in my head, a litany of potential heartaches that I was not sure I was ready to face.

In that moment, the world seemed to contract, narrowing down to the space between Paul and me, to the unspoken, to the fear of a truth yet to be unveiled. The safety of the camp, the presence of the shadow panther, all faded into the backdrop of this new, more immediate concern. The anticipation of loss, of bad news, hung heavily in the air, a tangible weight that threatened to crush the last vestiges of hope I clung to.

Before I could articulate the dread swarming within me, Paul reached out, his hands enveloping mine, a gesture meant to anchor me amidst the brewing storm. "Duke's dead," he declared, his voice a blend of steadiness and sorrow, a stark harbinger of the anguish to come.

The words struck like a physical blow, a searing lance of pain that pierced through my defences, twisting through my stomach in cruel knots before lodging itself mercilessly in my heart. "Where is he?" The question emerged as a hoarse whisper, my voice a fragile thread in the heavy silence that enveloped us.

"Jamie is with him. They're behind the tents," Paul's response was tender, his grip on my arm an attempt to offer solace, to provide a semblance of stability in the maelstrom of grief that threatened to engulf me.

With a surge of desperation, I wrenched my hands free, propelled by a need to see, to understand, to confront the grim reality Paul had laid bare. My legs carried me through the camp, each step a battle against the nausea churning in my stomach, the acrid taste of bile rising in my throat.

My eyes, blurred with tears that threatened to fall, burned with the intensity of my sorrow. The world around me seemed distorted, the familiar contours of the camp morphing into a surreal landscape, each step bringing me closer to a truth I was not prepared to face.

I stopped abruptly when I reached the end of the last tent, the world beyond it opening up to reveal the riverbank where Jamie sat, isolated in his sorrow. He was perched precariously, his legs dangling gently in the water, a stark contrast to the storm of grief I knew was brewing inside him. My steps slowed, each one heavier than the last, as I approached, my heart hammering against my ribs, echoing the tumult within.

"Go away, Luke," Jamie's voice was flat, resigned, yet laced with an undercurrent of raw pain. He didn't turn to face me, his gaze fixed on the gently flowing river, as if seeking solace in its steady, unending passage.

"Jamie... I'm so..." The words lodged in my throat, a tangled mess of apologies and condolences that I couldn't force out. My voice fractured, breaking under the weight of the unspeakable loss we were facing. My heart, rebellious and in denial, clung to a sliver of hope even as reality bore down upon me with relentless certainty.

I edged closer, driven by a need to be near, to share in the burden of grief that enveloped Jamie. And then I saw it—Duke's small, motionless form cradled in Jamie's lap, his once vibrant and lively essence reduced to a silent, lifeless stillness. Jamie's hand, stained with blood, moved slowly, tenderly, through Duke's fur, a poignant gesture of love and farewell.

My eyes widened, not just in dread but in a profound realisation of the finality before me. The sight of Duke, so still and silent, and Jamie, enveloped in his solitary mourning, struck a chord deep within me. The blood, the stillness, the palpable air of loss—it all converged into a visceral tableau of sorrow that no words could encapsulate.

"I said go away, Luke," Jamie's voice cracked like a whip, slicing through the heavy air between us. His grief was transforming into a palpable anger, a shield against the unbearable pain.

Yet, drawn by an invisible tether of shared loss and guilt, I inched closer, my body moving of its own accord. Crouching down beside them, the river's gentle murmur battling against  the storm of emotions raging around us, I extended a trembling hand toward Duke. My fingertips grazed the young dog's fur, the once lively creature now an emblem of the cruelty of our reality. A lump swelled in my throat, choking me with a raw mix of sorrow and guilt. An innocent life, snuffed out in the chaos of our struggles. The injustice of it clawed at me, a bitter reminder of the fragility of life.

"Fuck off, Luke!" The venom in Jamie's voice jolted me, his words a physical blow that knocked the breath from my lungs. He turned, his eyes alight with a fierce, scalding anger. "This is all your fault. You don't fucking deserve to touch him. Ever!"

His accusation was a dagger to my heart, slicing through the last vestiges of my composure. I stumbled backward, the ground unkind as I landed awkwardly, the shock of the cold, hard earth mirroring the shock of his words. Tears, unbidden and uncontrollable, streamed down my face, carving wet trails through the dust and grime.

"I didn't mean for any of this to happen," my voice was a mere whisper, a feeble attempt to convey the turmoil inside me. Guilt, sorrow, regret—they all mingled into a suffocating fog, choking me with their intensity. My eyes, blurred with tears, sought Jamie's, yearning for some semblance of understanding, forgiveness, anything to mitigate the chasm of blame that had opened up between us.

But Jamie's stare was unyielding, a clear challenge, daring me to justify my actions, to bridge the gap of grief and anger that Duke's death had widened. In his eyes, I saw the reflection of my own torment, magnified and distorted by our shared pain, a pain that seemed to deepen with every passing second, with every tear that fell, with every heartbeat that echoed the question: How did we get here?

"It's too fucking late for sorry," Jamie spat out the words with a venom that stung deeper than any physical wound. He turned his back to me, a clear dismissal, his attention returning to Duke, the silent, still form between us. In that brief, charged silence, the air seemed to thicken, laden with unsaid words and unshed tears, until Jamie's voice, softer now, broke through. "Just fuck off, Luke. Please."

His plea, edged with a raw, desperate hurt, was a blade twisting in my already shattered heart. I was ousted, not just from his physical space but from the shared circle of mourning for our lost companion. The rejection stung, a clear message that my presence only deepened his pain.

With a heart heavy as lead and eyes blurred with tears, I turned away, my steps mechanical as I trudged through the camp. The world around me felt surreal, distant, as if I was moving through a haze of grief and disbelief. My eyes, swollen and red from the relentless flow of tears, saw the familiar surroundings of the camp as if through a veil.

The faces of Beatrix and Paul emerged from the blur, their expressions etched with concern and confusion. But their voices, calling out to me, seemed muffled, distant. My mind, ensnared in a tumultuous whirlwind of guilt, sorrow, and a burgeoning sense of duty, couldn't grasp their words, couldn't tether me to the moment.

I didn't stop. Couldn't stop. The weight of Jamie's words propelled me forward, driving me towards the Portal, towards a purpose that now seemed both a refuge and a penance.

As the Portal loomed ahead, a beacon amidst my storm of emotions, each step felt like a march through my own shattered reflections. The weight of Jamie's raw, pained dismissal anchored each footfall, embedding a resolve in me that was as piercing as the grief gnawing at my soul. This wasn't just a path toward duty; it was a pilgrimage to atone for my part in this tapestry of loss and to honour Duke's memory in the only way left to me.

The whispers of Beatrix and Paul faded behind me, like echoes of a life I was momentarily leaving behind. My focus narrowed to the shimmering threshold before me, a gate that separated my past failings from my determination to forge a different future. The air around me seemed to pulse with the silent screams of my regrets and the unvoiced promises to those I still had the power to protect.

I have a new job to do now... my settlement needs protection! This wasn't just a vow; it was a lifeline—a channel for my anguish and guilt to morph into something that could stand against the tide of threats we faced. It was a commitment carved from the very depths of my turmoil, a pledge that Duke's end would be the catalyst for my rebirth into someone he, and Jamie, could be proud of, even from the shadows of our shared memories.

With each step toward the Portal, my heart beat a solemn drum of resolve, echoing through the void of my despair. I was stepping into the unknown, armed with a newfound purpose, forged from loss and love, ready to face whatever lay beyond. This was my testament, a promise etched in the very fabric of my being, to fight, to protect, to never forget the price of our survival.

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